Playing God (paramore)

I can't make my own decisions 
or make any with precision
well, maybe you should tie my up
so i don't go where you don't want me 


You say that I've been changing 
that I'm not just simply aging
yeah, how could that be logical?
Just keep on cramming ideas down my throat


Woh oh oh oh
You don't have to believe me
but the way I, way I see it
next time you point a finger 
i might have to bend it back
or break it, break it off


Next time you point a finger
I'll point you to the mirror


If God's the game that you're playing
well, we must get more acquainted
because it has to be so lonely
to be the only one who's holy


It's just my humble opinion
but it's one that I believe in
You don't deserve a point of view
if the only thing you see is you


Woh oh oh oh 
You don't have to believe me 
but the way I, way I see it
next time you point a finger 
I might have to bend it back
or break it, break it off


Next time you point a finger 
I'll point you to the mirror


This is the last second chance
(I'll pont you to the mirror)
I'm half as good as it gets
(I'll point you to the mirror)


I'm on both sides of the fence
(I'll point you to the mirror)
Without a hint of regret
I'll hold you to it


I know you don't believe me
but the way I, way I see it
next time you point a finger 
I might have to bend it back
or break it, break it off


Next time you point a finger 
I'll point you to the mirror


I know you won't believe me 
but the way I, way I see it
next time you point a finger 
I might have to bend it back
or break it, break it off


Next time you point a finger
I'll  point you to the mirror

BluH

DO NOT READ!(boredom~ xD)

words words letters
words words syllables

bluh bluh bluh
bluhbluh

you talk too much
shut the fuck up
you talk too much
but you do nothing
bluh bluh bluh
me yeah i talk much
me yeah i say lots
but at least i make sense
and i know when to stop
(and i'm funny)

bluh bluh bluh
bluhbluh
bluh bluh bluh
bluhbluh

you are all talking
never acting
fading in the background
yet you talk like a hero
bluhbluhbluh
you know nothing
you know everything
i'm miss nothing
i'm miss everything (tpr)

Ας μπορούσα να περάσω όλο το ταξίδι τούτο αμίλητος!

Μια κούρα πυθαγόρεια. Να καθαρίσω απ' όλα τα λόγια που άκουσα και είπα,
ν' αφήσω τη σιωπή ν' απλωθεί δροσάτη, καταπράσινη, σαν περιπλοκάδα στα σωθικά μου!

Μα οι άνθρωποι είναι κοπάδι, δε σε αφήνουν.

Ζητούν να πιαστούν ο ένας από τον άλλον, ν' ακουμπήσουν σαν τα πρόβατα λαιμό με λαιμό.

Φοβούνται τη σιωπή. Η φλυαρία μονάχα μπορεί να στερεώσει την καρδιά τους.

Νίκου Καζαντζάκη, Ταξιδεύοντας: Ιαπωνία –Κίνα

Friendship is our safety net

Two people..
Trying their best..
Fighting their daemons..
Their time is stopped..
They meet in their dreams..


Uncertainty..
Fear..
Love..


If she wins..
If he wins..
Will their time start again?
Will their dream turn into reality?


Until then,
they wait..
wearing those masks..
it's like she said,
"friendship is our safety net!"

when i talk to you i'm in pain!!

i want to see you.. i want to touch you.. 

i want to hear your voice.. 

when i don't talk to you i'm in pain!!

i think of you consciously..unconsciously..subconsciously..  

i miss you all the time..

which pain is the worse i don't know

all i know is i have yet to find a way to get rid of these feelings

Why?

My thoughts are choking me again
I won't be able to sleep again cause my thoughts are choking me


Why did I play? Why did I stay?
Why did it break? Why did it end?
Why did I win? Why did I lose?
Why.. why..
Why do i miss you so much dammit?
Why?


Seems like this last thought is the strongest
The strongest thought that devoured all the others in the blink of an eye
and became the one and only, the dominant thought


Laughter.. Tears..
Anxiety.. Smiles..
Feelings.. Memories..
Sadness.. Madness!


The dominant thought lies with no shame in my subconscious mind
It lies there and tortures me silently  


And that's when the hand writes three letters, one word, a message 
The hand writes a message and sends it to you
And you read it bewildered 


Why?


It's the shortest message I've ever sent
The shortest, yet the most sincere and comprehensive of them all


"Why?"

Γιατι?

Πνίγομαι για άλλη μια φορά στις σκέψεις μου

Για άλλη μια φορά πνίγομαι στις σκέψεις μου και δεν μπορώ να κοιμηθώ

Γιατί πήγα? Γιατί έφυγα?

Γιατί έκλεισε? Γιατί έσπασε?

Γιατί κέρδισα? Γιατί έχασα?

Γιατί.. γιατί.. 

Γιατί μου λείπεις τόσο πολύ ρε γαμώτο?

Γιατί?

Η τελευταία σκέψη είναι απ'ό,τι φαίνεται και η πιο δυνατή

Η πιο δυνατή σκέψη που εξαφάνισε σε κλάσματα δευτερολέπτου τις υπόλοιπες

και έγινε η μία, η μοναδική, η κυρίαρχη σκέψη

Γελάω.. Βουρκώνω..

Θυμάμαι.. Δακρύζω..

Αγχώνομαι.. Κλαίω..

Νιώθω.. Εκνευρίζομαι!

Η κυρίαρχη σκέψη φωλιάζει ξεδιάντροπα στο υποσυνείδητο

Φωλιάζει στο υποσυνείδητο και με βασανίζει σιωπηλά

Και έτσι το χέρι γράφει πέντε γράμματα, μία λέξη, ένα μήνυμα

Ένα μήνυμα γράφει το χέρι και στο στέλνει

Κι εσύ το διαβάζεις με απορία

Γιατί?

Είναι το πιο μικρό μήνυμα που έστειλα ποτέ

Το πιο μικρό, αλλά το πιο ειλικρινές και περιεκτικό απ'ολα

"Γιατί?"

どうして？

どうして君を好きになってしまったんたろう?

idou h aporia! (venting/written around 2011-2012)

aah.. dammit pws antexw? pes m pws? xD

and i keep wondering an pernas ki esu tn idia fash..
an skeftesai o,ti skeftomai.. an niw8eis o,ti niw8w. =/

k olo se xexnw k olo se 8umamai..

i can't get u out of my head.. and i think u even got my heart?=o

pws?pote?why?

k gamwto prepei na sugkentrw8w alla dn ginetai! xD

8elw na teleiwnw me ts spoudes re pousth m... k isws tote.. tote isws..
isws na mporesw na se suntanthsw.. =/ i hope so..

and fovamai k ligo einai h alh8eia..

fovamai tn apomu8opoihsh..

ki an kapoios ap'ts duo kanei pisw?

hmm tespa.. etc ki alliws eixa hdh apofasisei na riskarw..
from the very first day...

so i ain't gonna take back my words.. dn prokeitai na kanw pisw..

gia na sena mono dn xerw..
k idou h aporia!

STFU!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
SHUT THE FUCK UUUUP!!!!!!!!!

GET UP DAMMIT!! SHUT UP AND GET UP!! STOP CRYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STOP ΝΑ ΚΛΑΙΣ ΤΗ ΜΟΙΡΑ ΣΟΥΥΥ!!!!!! ΕΛΕΟΣΣΣΣ.........
YOU HAVE TO GET STRONGER!! AND LEARN TO MOVE ON... MOVE OOOON!!!

I'M NOT SAYING TO BECOME INSENSITIVE.. I'M SAYING TO BE STRONG!
STRONG! CAN YOU UNDERSTAND THE DIFFERENCE??
OK I KNOW EVERYONE 'BREAKS DOWN' EVERY NOW AND THEN...
WE ARE HUMAN AFTER ALL..
SOMETIMES YOU GET SOO TIRED EVERYTHING SEEMS BLACK..

BUT
BUT
BUT SHUT THE FUCK UUUP!!
WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE ME MISERABLE TOO??

I HAVE MY PROBLEMS.. I HAVE MY "STRESS"...
BUT I'LL PULL THROUGH.. I ALWAYS PULL THROUGH!
SO YOU HAVE TO PULL THROUGH TOO! STOP DEPENDING ON ME..
STOP DEPENDING ON OTHERS.. STOP CRYING FOR YOUR BAD LUCK OR BAD FATE OR BAD WHAT-SO-EVER...
ΕΛΕΟΟΟΟΣ!!!

WE MAKE OUR LIFE.. MAKE OUR FUTURE.. WE MAKE OUR HAPPINESS WITH OUR OWN FUCKING HANDS!!!

SO SHUT THE FUCK UP AND TAKE CONTROL OF UR OWN LIFE!!!....
I WON'T ALWAYS BE AROUND TO HELP YOU..
OF COURSE YOU CAN COUNT ON ME! YOU JUST CAN'T CLING TO ME!
SO STOP SUCKIN' MY BLOOD... STOP GIVIN' ME HEADACHES..
AND WAKE UP!
DO YOU HAVE THE GUTS TO WAKE UP AND FACE REALITY?

the only thing you see is Y O U

one more time I trust you
one more time you fail me
I'm sick of this game
a neverending pain
i love you the most
i hate you the most
as years go by
you disgust me even more
when I break free
I'll lose everything
when i lose everything
will I gain the world
I just have to take my chances
burn you all down to ashes
i just want to see the sky
risk it all and fly high!