Ignorance is a bliss? (thoughts/written around 2011)

I'm optimistic but also a realist...
Sometimes reality is too strong!
Optimism might help you move on... you might try to heal the wound that reality left on you..
but the scar will always be there.. it will always be there to remind you of reality!
Τελικά ίσως είναι αυτό που λέμε "μακάριοι οι πτωχοί τω πνεύματι" και ίσως "ignorance is a bliss"..

Fallen (unfinished/written around 2011)

Feels like I froze in place

my mind is trapped in a cage

no more stars in my skies 

no more colour in my eyes 

seems like I'm a ghost
in your eyes I am lost

Lost on you - LP

When you get older, plainer, saner

Will you remember all the danger 
we came from?

Burning like embers, falling, tender

Long before the days of no surrender

years ago 
and will you know?

Smoke 'em if you got 'em 

'Cause it's going down

All I ever wanted was you

I'll never get to heaven

'Cause I don't know how

Let's raise a glass or two

To all the things I lost on you

Oh oh

Tell me are they lost on you?

Oh oh

Just that you could cut me loose

Oh oh

After everything I've lost on you

Is that lost on you?

Oh oh

Is that lost on you?

Oh oh

Baby is that lost on you?

Is that lost on you?

Wish that I could see the machinations

Understand the toil of expectations 
in your mind

Hold me like you never lost your patience

Tell me that you love me more than hate me 
all the time

and you're still mine

So smoke 'em if you got 'em 

'Cause it's going down

All I ever wanted was you

Let's take a drink of heaven

This turn around

And raise a glass or two

To all the things I've lost on you

Oh oh

Tell me are they lost on you?

Oh oh

Just that you could cut me loose

Oh oh

After everything I've lost on you

Is that lost on you?

Oh oh

Is that lost on you?

Oh oh

Baby is that lost on you?

Is that lost on you?

Jinx!

long story short I'm jinxed..
k bye.

this blog is a "side" thing.. I prefer handwriting, but most of the things I've written were lost together with my notebook a few years ago.
I kinda got over it..kinda.. and I kept writing on my android.. I had a nice little app..
but
I've never saved my data online.. it was only on the phone.. and every time I'd say "I'll make a back-up tomorrow"..
tomorrow... of course it never happened... and then I lost my phone.... everything I've written the last couple years was in there!!! :')

I'm kinda weird, cause I have an "all or nothing" personality.. I was this close to destroying or deleting whatever was left.. but nope., I didn't..

so I'm still here! I'm.. back.. yay!

lol

it's not like anyone reads all this..
it feels like a diary..

welp

I'm back!

for now..

I'll probably disappear again and start writing on another notebook or gadget or whatever..
cause that's just me! xD

In those black and white keys,
that's where I found my inner peace.. 

It's the only place I can fit in..
the only place I'm really free..

Ψευδαίσθηση

Είσαι το ναρκωτικό μου
Το παραδέχομαι
Όσο μακρία σου κι αν τρέξω
Όσο κι αν υποκρίνομαι πως δεν σε χρειάζομαι,
πως σ'έχω ξεγράψει
Μία σου λέξη αρκεί για να επιστρέψω
Να υποκύψω
Να εξαρτηθώ
Είμαι εξαρτημένη από τις λέξεις σου
Αυτές τις λέξεις που με το ζόρι μοιράζεσαι
που μόνο τις βλέπω και ποτέ δεν τις ακούω
Δεν μου αρκεί πλέον αυτό
Θέλω να δω εσένα
Θέλω να σε αγγίξω,
να σε ακούσω
Και θέλω τόσα ν' ακούσω απ'τ χείλη σου,
που δεν μπορείς να φανταστείς 
Γιατί εσύ είσαι το ναρκωτικό μου,
οι λέξεις σου είναι οι δόσεις μου
κι εγώ είμαι απλά εξαρτημένη

I haven't been posting much recently, have I?
Well, I didn't really have time, especially during the first half of this year..
Besides, I prefer handwriting!
sigh..and I still haven't gotten over the fact that I lost my precious notebook!!!
It was the "work" of a lifetime lol
Maybe that was the sign for a new beginning!
Though I haven't been writting that much and I also haven't written anything that good since then....
However.. truth is... so many things have happened since then!
since then!
since then...
since when??

[to my inexistent readers lol]

Grey Poem / pLastiq

THERE IS SUN
AND THERE IS RAIN
THERE IS ALWAYS THE MIDNIGHT CRAVE


THERE ARE SMILES 
AND THERE ARE TEARS
IT'S THIS LONELINESS I FEAR


THERE ARE THOUGHTS I NEED TO CLEAR
THERE IS A PLACE I CAN'T GO NEAR
AND I FIND MYSELF JUST WAITING


THEN A GREY POEM UNRAVELS . . . 


THERE WAS SUN 
AND THERE WAS RAIN
BUT THERE WAS NEVER A MIDNIGHT CRAVE


NOW THE SMILES
HAVE TURNED TO TEARS
IT'S THIS LONELINESS I FEAR


THERE ARE THOUGHTS I NEED TO CLEAR
THERE IS A PLACE I CAN'T GO NEAR
AND I FIND MYSELF JUST WAITING 


THEN A GREY POEM UNRAVELS . . . 

Playing God (paramore)

I can't make my own decisions 
or make any with precision
well, maybe you should tie my up
so i don't go where you don't want me 


You say that I've been changing 
that I'm not just simply aging
yeah, how could that be logical?
Just keep on cramming ideas down my throat


Woh oh oh oh
You don't have to believe me
but the way I, way I see it
next time you point a finger 
i might have to bend it back
or break it, break it off


Next time you point a finger
I'll point you to the mirror


If God's the game that you're playing
well, we must get more acquainted
because it has to be so lonely
to be the only one who's holy


It's just my humble opinion
but it's one that I believe in
You don't deserve a point of view
if the only thing you see is you


Woh oh oh oh 
You don't have to believe me 
but the way I, way I see it
next time you point a finger 
I might have to bend it back
or break it, break it off


Next time you point a finger 
I'll point you to the mirror


This is the last second chance
(I'll pont you to the mirror)
I'm half as good as it gets
(I'll point you to the mirror)


I'm on both sides of the fence
(I'll point you to the mirror)
Without a hint of regret
I'll hold you to it


I know you don't believe me
but the way I, way I see it
next time you point a finger 
I might have to bend it back
or break it, break it off


Next time you point a finger 
I'll point you to the mirror


I know you won't believe me 
but the way I, way I see it
next time you point a finger 
I might have to bend it back
or break it, break it off


Next time you point a finger
I'll  point you to the mirror

BluH

DO NOT READ!(boredom~ xD)

words words letters
words words syllables

bluh bluh bluh
bluhbluh

you talk too much
shut the fuck up
you talk too much
but you do nothing
bluh bluh bluh
me yeah i talk much
me yeah i say lots
but at least i make sense
and i know when to stop
(and i'm funny)

bluh bluh bluh
bluhbluh
bluh bluh bluh
bluhbluh

you are all talking
never acting
fading in the background
yet you talk like a hero
bluhbluhbluh
you know nothing
you know everything
i'm miss nothing
i'm miss everything (tpr)

Ας μπορούσα να περάσω όλο το ταξίδι τούτο αμίλητος!

Μια κούρα πυθαγόρεια. Να καθαρίσω απ' όλα τα λόγια που άκουσα και είπα,
ν' αφήσω τη σιωπή ν' απλωθεί δροσάτη, καταπράσινη, σαν περιπλοκάδα στα σωθικά μου!

Μα οι άνθρωποι είναι κοπάδι, δε σε αφήνουν.

Ζητούν να πιαστούν ο ένας από τον άλλον, ν' ακουμπήσουν σαν τα πρόβατα λαιμό με λαιμό.

Φοβούνται τη σιωπή. Η φλυαρία μονάχα μπορεί να στερεώσει την καρδιά τους.

Νίκου Καζαντζάκη, Ταξιδεύοντας: Ιαπωνία –Κίνα

Friendship is our safety net

Two people..
Trying their best..
Fighting their daemons..
Their time is stopped..
They meet in their dreams..


Uncertainty..
Fear..
Love..


If she wins..
If he wins..
Will their time start again?
Will their dream turn into reality?


Until then,
they wait..
wearing those masks..
it's like she said,
"friendship is our safety net!"

when i talk to you i'm in pain!!

i want to see you.. i want to touch you.. 

i want to hear your voice.. 

when i don't talk to you i'm in pain!!

i think of you consciously..unconsciously..subconsciously..  

i miss you all the time..

which pain is the worse i don't know

all i know is i have yet to find a way to get rid of these feelings

Why?

My thoughts are choking me again
I won't be able to sleep again cause my thoughts are choking me


Why did I play? Why did I stay?
Why did it break? Why did it end?
Why did I win? Why did I lose?
Why.. why..
Why do i miss you so much dammit?
Why?


Seems like this last thought is the strongest
The strongest thought that devoured all the others in the blink of an eye
and became the one and only, the dominant thought


Laughter.. Tears..
Anxiety.. Smiles..
Feelings.. Memories..
Sadness.. Madness!


The dominant thought lies with no shame in my subconscious mind
It lies there and tortures me silently  


And that's when the hand writes three letters, one word, a message 
The hand writes a message and sends it to you
And you read it bewildered 


Why?


It's the shortest message I've ever sent
The shortest, yet the most sincere and comprehensive of them all


"Why?"

Γιατι?

Πνίγομαι για άλλη μια φορά στις σκέψεις μου

Για άλλη μια φορά πνίγομαι στις σκέψεις μου και δεν μπορώ να κοιμηθώ

Γιατί πήγα? Γιατί έφυγα?

Γιατί έκλεισε? Γιατί έσπασε?

Γιατί κέρδισα? Γιατί έχασα?

Γιατί.. γιατί.. 

Γιατί μου λείπεις τόσο πολύ ρε γαμώτο?

Γιατί?

Η τελευταία σκέψη είναι απ'ό,τι φαίνεται και η πιο δυνατή

Η πιο δυνατή σκέψη που εξαφάνισε σε κλάσματα δευτερολέπτου τις υπόλοιπες

και έγινε η μία, η μοναδική, η κυρίαρχη σκέψη

Γελάω.. Βουρκώνω..

Θυμάμαι.. Δακρύζω..

Αγχώνομαι.. Κλαίω..

Νιώθω.. Εκνευρίζομαι!

Η κυρίαρχη σκέψη φωλιάζει ξεδιάντροπα στο υποσυνείδητο

Φωλιάζει στο υποσυνείδητο και με βασανίζει σιωπηλά

Και έτσι το χέρι γράφει πέντε γράμματα, μία λέξη, ένα μήνυμα

Ένα μήνυμα γράφει το χέρι και στο στέλνει

Κι εσύ το διαβάζεις με απορία

Γιατί?

Είναι το πιο μικρό μήνυμα που έστειλα ποτέ

Το πιο μικρό, αλλά το πιο ειλικρινές και περιεκτικό απ'ολα

"Γιατί?"

どうして？

どうして君を好きになってしまったんたろう?

idou h aporia! (venting/written around 2011-2012)

aah.. dammit pws antexw? pes m pws? xD

and i keep wondering an pernas ki esu tn idia fash..
an skeftesai o,ti skeftomai.. an niw8eis o,ti niw8w. =/

k olo se xexnw k olo se 8umamai..

i can't get u out of my head.. and i think u even got my heart?=o

pws?pote?why?

k gamwto prepei na sugkentrw8w alla dn ginetai! xD

8elw na teleiwnw me ts spoudes re pousth m... k isws tote.. tote isws..
isws na mporesw na se suntanthsw.. =/ i hope so..

and fovamai k ligo einai h alh8eia..

fovamai tn apomu8opoihsh..

ki an kapoios ap'ts duo kanei pisw?

hmm tespa.. etc ki alliws eixa hdh apofasisei na riskarw..
from the very first day...

so i ain't gonna take back my words.. dn prokeitai na kanw pisw..

gia na sena mono dn xerw..
k idou h aporia!

STFU!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
SHUT THE FUCK UUUUP!!!!!!!!!

GET UP DAMMIT!! SHUT UP AND GET UP!! STOP CRYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STOP ΝΑ ΚΛΑΙΣ ΤΗ ΜΟΙΡΑ ΣΟΥΥΥ!!!!!! ΕΛΕΟΣΣΣΣ.........
YOU HAVE TO GET STRONGER!! AND LEARN TO MOVE ON... MOVE OOOON!!!

I'M NOT SAYING TO BECOME INSENSITIVE.. I'M SAYING TO BE STRONG!
STRONG! CAN YOU UNDERSTAND THE DIFFERENCE??
OK I KNOW EVERYONE 'BREAKS DOWN' EVERY NOW AND THEN...
WE ARE HUMAN AFTER ALL..
SOMETIMES YOU GET SOO TIRED EVERYTHING SEEMS BLACK..

BUT
BUT
BUT SHUT THE FUCK UUUP!!
WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE ME MISERABLE TOO??

I HAVE MY PROBLEMS.. I HAVE MY "STRESS"...
BUT I'LL PULL THROUGH.. I ALWAYS PULL THROUGH!
SO YOU HAVE TO PULL THROUGH TOO! STOP DEPENDING ON ME..
STOP DEPENDING ON OTHERS.. STOP CRYING FOR YOUR BAD LUCK OR BAD FATE OR BAD WHAT-SO-EVER...
ΕΛΕΟΟΟΟΣ!!!

WE MAKE OUR LIFE.. MAKE OUR FUTURE.. WE MAKE OUR HAPPINESS WITH OUR OWN FUCKING HANDS!!!

SO SHUT THE FUCK UP AND TAKE CONTROL OF UR OWN LIFE!!!....
I WON'T ALWAYS BE AROUND TO HELP YOU..
OF COURSE YOU CAN COUNT ON ME! YOU JUST CAN'T CLING TO ME!
SO STOP SUCKIN' MY BLOOD... STOP GIVIN' ME HEADACHES..
AND WAKE UP!
DO YOU HAVE THE GUTS TO WAKE UP AND FACE REALITY?

the only thing you see is Y O U

one more time I trust you
one more time you fail me
I'm sick of this game
a neverending pain
i love you the most
i hate you the most
as years go by
you disgust me even more
when I break free
I'll lose everything
when i lose everything
will I gain the world
I just have to take my chances
burn you all down to ashes
i just want to see the sky
risk it all and fly high! 

Σαπφώ - "Γρήγορα η ώρα πέρασε.."

γρήγορα η ώρα πέρασε,μεσάνυχτα κοντεύουν, 
πάει το φεγγάρι πάει κι η Πούλια βασιλέψανε
και μόνο εγώ κείτομαι δω μονάχη κι έρημη 
ο Έρωτας που βάσανα μοιράζει 
ο Έρωτας που παραμύθια πλάθει 
μου άρπαξε την ψυχή μου και την τράνταξε 
ίδια καθώς αγέρας από τα βουνά χυμάει 
μέσα στους δρυς φυσομανώντας.