Ignorance is a bliss? (thoughts/written around 2011)

I'm optimistic but also a realist...
Sometimes reality is too strong!
Optimism might help you move on... you might try to heal the wound that reality left on you..
but the scar will always be there.. it will always be there to remind you of reality!
Τελικά ίσως είναι αυτό που λέμε "μακάριοι οι πτωχοί τω πνεύματι" και ίσως "ignorance is a bliss"..

Fallen (unfinished/written around 2011)

Feels like I froze in place

my mind is trapped in a cage

no more stars in my skies 

no more colour in my eyes 

seems like I'm a ghost
in your eyes I am lost

Lost on you - LP

When you get older, plainer, saner

Will you remember all the danger 
we came from?

Burning like embers, falling, tender

Long before the days of no surrender

years ago 
and will you know?

Smoke 'em if you got 'em 

'Cause it's going down

All I ever wanted was you

I'll never get to heaven

'Cause I don't know how

Let's raise a glass or two

To all the things I lost on you

Oh oh

Tell me are they lost on you?

Oh oh

Just that you could cut me loose

Oh oh

After everything I've lost on you

Is that lost on you?

Oh oh

Is that lost on you?

Oh oh

Baby is that lost on you?

Is that lost on you?

Wish that I could see the machinations

Understand the toil of expectations 
in your mind

Hold me like you never lost your patience

Tell me that you love me more than hate me 
all the time

and you're still mine

So smoke 'em if you got 'em 

'Cause it's going down

All I ever wanted was you

Let's take a drink of heaven

This turn around

And raise a glass or two

To all the things I've lost on you

Oh oh

Tell me are they lost on you?

Oh oh

Just that you could cut me loose

Oh oh

After everything I've lost on you

Is that lost on you?

Oh oh

Is that lost on you?

Oh oh

Baby is that lost on you?

Is that lost on you?

Jinx!

long story short I'm jinxed..
k bye.

this blog is a "side" thing.. I prefer handwriting, but most of the things I've written were lost together with my notebook a few years ago.
I kinda got over it..kinda.. and I kept writing on my android.. I had a nice little app..
but
I've never saved my data online.. it was only on the phone.. and every time I'd say "I'll make a back-up tomorrow"..
tomorrow... of course it never happened... and then I lost my phone.... everything I've written the last couple years was in there!!! :')

I'm kinda weird, cause I have an "all or nothing" personality.. I was this close to destroying or deleting whatever was left.. but nope., I didn't..

so I'm still here! I'm.. back.. yay!

lol

it's not like anyone reads all this..
it feels like a diary..

welp

I'm back!

for now..

I'll probably disappear again and start writing on another notebook or gadget or whatever..
cause that's just me! xD

In those black and white keys,
that's where I found my inner peace.. 

It's the only place I can fit in..
the only place I'm really free..

Ψευδαίσθηση

Είσαι το ναρκωτικό μου
Το παραδέχομαι
Όσο μακρία σου κι αν τρέξω
Όσο κι αν υποκρίνομαι πως δεν σε χρειάζομαι,
πως σ'έχω ξεγράψει
Μία σου λέξη αρκεί για να επιστρέψω
Να υποκύψω
Να εξαρτηθώ
Είμαι εξαρτημένη από τις λέξεις σου
Αυτές τις λέξεις που με το ζόρι μοιράζεσαι
που μόνο τις βλέπω και ποτέ δεν τις ακούω
Δεν μου αρκεί πλέον αυτό
Θέλω να δω εσένα
Θέλω να σε αγγίξω,
να σε ακούσω
Και θέλω τόσα ν' ακούσω απ'τ χείλη σου,
που δεν μπορείς να φανταστείς 
Γιατί εσύ είσαι το ναρκωτικό μου,
οι λέξεις σου είναι οι δόσεις μου
κι εγώ είμαι απλά εξαρτημένη

I haven't been posting much recently, have I?
Well, I didn't really have time, especially during the first half of this year..
Besides, I prefer handwriting!
sigh..and I still haven't gotten over the fact that I lost my precious notebook!!!
It was the "work" of a lifetime lol
Maybe that was the sign for a new beginning!
Though I haven't been writting that much and I also haven't written anything that good since then....
However.. truth is... so many things have happened since then!
since then!
since then...
since when??

[to my inexistent readers lol]